What a podcast pitch taught me about voice activation, visibility, and giving my authority away.
I was preparing to send a podcast pitch when I noticed my nervous system completely change.
The host was a man with a much larger and highly engaged audience. Before I had even sent the email, my heart was racing.
That immediately made me curious.
Why this one?
As I sat with it, I realized I wasn’t reacting to this particular man. I was reacting to what male authority represented inside me.
Somewhere along the way, I had come to associate male authority with power. With logic over intuition. With someone who might challenge my spirituality because it wasn’t backed by science, data, or analysis. Someone who might look down on my lived experience simply because it couldn’t always be explained in those terms.
And beneath all of that, I wasn’t actually afraid of being challenged.
I was afraid of being humiliated.
Not long ago, I watched another woman appear on a podcast where the male host drilled her with difficult questions. She handled it beautifully and even turned the experience into part of her marketing. But I realized I had quietly absorbed that possibility.
What if that happened to me?
Growing up, if I wanted permission for something, my mum would often tell me, “Ask Daddy.”
Then there was growing up in an Asian culture, alongside the collective stories many of us have inherited about men holding more authority than women.
None of this meant every man was unsafe. In fact, the male hosts I had spoken with before had been kind, respectful, and encouraging.
The pattern wasn’t outside of me.
It was another layer within me.
Right before I sent the email, the electricity went out. The whole house fell into complete darkness.
I laughed.
“God… is this a sign to send the email, or a sign not to send it?”
For the next thirty minutes, there was nothing to do except sit in the silence.
When the power came back on, something inside me had settled too.
It suddenly became obvious: I could send the email. And if the conversation no longer felt aligned, I could simply say no.
Sending an email wasn’t a lifetime commitment.
Remembering that gave my nervous system a sense of safety.
By then, I knew this reflection was no longer about a podcast. It was about healing another layer of my relationship with male authority—and what voice activation looks like in practice.
Sometimes voice activation isn’t about speaking louder.
Sometimes it is about feeling safe enough to choose without abandoning your own authority.
For me, healing my relationship with male authority doesn’t mean avoiding or rejecting men. It means removing the pedestal.
Owning my power means owning my voice, my decisions, and my truth without relying on external approval or validation.
It doesn’t mean believing I’m always right. It means trusting who I am and what I believe while remaining open to feedback.
Someone may have more followers, influence, or status than me. They may be a man or a woman. None of those things make one person superior and the other inferior.
When we return to oneness, there are simply two human beings meeting each other.
Not fearing male authority.
Not rejecting male authority.
But no longer giving my own authority away.
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